Following the Path to My Faith

Here i am today, sitting on my cozy hard pink chair in my bedroom, facing to my computer screen, reading on a text, and translating the content of it. There are 15 pages more which should i finish today. Yeah, little bit tiring actually, but i love it so much, coz its content is absolutely amazing. When i read its every single line, i feel as if i reread HAMKA's Tasauf Modern but it is in a more up-to-date setting.
Yeah, I enjoy reading books related to sufism. and the text i'm translating now is about sufism and Fetullah Gullen's thinking about it. You know then why i like doing it. It's about true love (something which is impossible to express with words, for love is an emotional state that can be understood only by the lover) and the balance between the physical and the spiritual. yeah, it's like a sound momentum when i got this text from my friend. i felt it's a sign from Him to show me how to get closer to Him, 'coz these days i was busy with my own carnal business.

Here is one of the best parts of his words that i like.
"Love makes us forget our existence, and annihilates our existence in the existence of our beloved. It therefore requires the lover always to want the beloved, and thus to dedicate himself or herself, without expecting any retur, completely to the desire of the beloved."

In short, i looooooove it sooooooo much. actually, i still want to write more about it and my feeling on it. unfortunately, i must stop and continue my work. let's see then.


PS: tonight i wanna attend Cak Nun's maiyahan in Bantul. i long for it, and i have missed it for some times. but i'm not sure whether i can come or not. i have a pile of work which hasn't finished yet. oh no.

HOPE HOLDS THE OPPORTUNITY

I wanna be a writer. Yeah, that’s the biggest and the highest idea in my life, a writer who can inspire everyone to move well toward the real happinesss, to be a better person, to do the goodness for life. And those are all my hopes. Anyway, I believe in my hope, that someday I’ll be a successful writer, ‘coz hope holds the opportunity. So far, it works for me. I have made a list of hopes in my dream book. Then one by one it become real, and I’ll put a sign on it. Sometimes, it’s done by me, and sometimes other people make it real for me. But, the point is we must get stick to our hope.
The hopes will help us to be aware of connections to spirit and others; whatever that lifts your spirit. Whatever helps you remember you’re not alone. Whatever gives you hopes. Sometimes, we don’t take time to develop the connection though we know a spirit is hovering around us. Why don’t we? Don’t we have an intention to do so? The more we allow ourselves time to ponder and be still, the more we become able to sense the spirit that holds hopes. Why must we do so? ‘Coz when we’re in touch with the spirit, there is a replenishing of hopes.
Don’t let the hopelessness overwhelm you. Try to develop our hope by listing or writing about the good things that have happened to us. We can remember how it was before and how it is now; lessons learned from hard times. Then we’ll realize that hope is there, that someone is watching out for us. Then save our hopes.