"ARISAN" : CLOSER friends, NICER moments...

It's us (MaYono, Mis Mei, me, Nana), at the first round of arisan in nana's house. Where's Mia? Ouch.. she was taking our picture).






trat..tat...tatt.... this is Mia, among us, in our picture.

THE BATTLE...

It seems clear for me that life sometimes doesn't run as smooth as we want. There will be some free wills that change it.
This year i decided to start my master degree. on that time, i thought that it will be an easy thing to handle both working and studying in the same time and the same share. in fact, i need more power to keep this work going well. Indeed.... the battle has just been started....between heart and responsibility.

MY SISTA GRADUATION DAY..

WE'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS MOMENT LONG TIME AGO.....
SISTERS ACT.
Well, it's the hard time for us when she moved to Jakarta, especially on the first month. We missed each other badly.










My loving siblings, (my bro and sist). We've shared countless moments together to complete each other and to realize the meaning of love. Yeah...blood is thicker than water.

ENHANCING YOUR TEACHING EFFECTIVENESS

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Accurately assessing your students' developmental state can direct your planning and impel your teaching. For instance, recognizing a 16-year-old's concern about his appearance and his standing among his peers may promote your rapport with him and eliminate learning barriers.

Keep in mind that chronologic age and developmental stage are not always related. Throughout life, people move sequentially through developmental stages, but most people also fluctuate somewhat among stages, often in response to outside stressors. These stressors can cause a person to regress temporarily to an earlier stage. Sometimes a person may not achieve the task expected of his chronologic age. So you will need to address your students at their current developmental stages, not at the stages at which you would expect them to be because of their chronological ages.

In some situations, hopefully most, you will have time to sit down and develop a formal teaching plan. In others, you will be confronted with a "teachable moment" when the student is ready to learn and is asking pointed questions. Invariably, these moments seem to come at the most inopportune times. At times like these, you face the dilemma: to teach or not to teach. Having a knowledge of basic learning principles will help you take best advantage of these moments. Here are some principles proven to enhance teaching and learning.

Seize the moment

Teaching is most effective when it occurs in quick response to a need the learner feels. So even though you are elbow deep in something else, you should make every effort to teach the student when he or she asks. The student is ready to learn. Satisfy that immediate need for information now, and augment your teaching with more information later.

Involve the student in planning

Just presenting information to the student does not ensure learning. For learning to occur, you will need to get the student involved in identifying his learning needs and outcomes. Help him to develop attainable objectives. As the teaching process continues, you can further engage him or her by selecting teaching strategies and materials that require the student's direct involvement, such as role playing and return demonstration. Regardless of the teaching strategy you choose, giving the student the chance to test his or her ideas, to take risks, and to be creative will promote learning.

Begin with what the student knows

You will find that learning moves faster when it builds on what the student already knows. Teaching that begins by comparing the old, known information or process and the new, unknown one allows the student to grasp new information more quickly.

Move from simple to complex

The student will find learning more rewarding if he has the opportunity to master simple concepts first and then apply these concepts to more complex ones. Remember, however, that what one student finds simple, another may find complex. A careful assessment takes these differences into account and helps you plan the teaching starting point.

Accommodate the student's preferred learning style

How quickly and well a student learns depends not only on his or her intelligence and prior education, but also on the student's learning style preference. Visual learners gain knowledge best by seeing or reading what you are trying to teach; auditory learners, by listening;and tactile or psychomotor learners, by doing.

You can improve your chances for teaching success if you assess your patient's preferred learning style, then plan teaching activities and use teaching tools appropriate to that style. To assess a student's learning style, observe the student, administer a learning style inventory, or simply ask the student how he or she learns best.

You can also experiment with different teaching tools, such as printed material, illustrations, videotapes, and actual equipment, to assess learning style. Never assume, though, that your student can read well -- or even read at all.

Sort goals by learning domain

You can combine your knowledge of the student's preferred learning style with your knowledge of learning domains. Categorizing what the students need to learn into proper domains helps identify and evaluate the behaviors you expect them to show.

Learning behaviors fall in three domains: cognitive, psychomotor, and affective. The cognitive domain deals with intellectual abilities. The psychomotor domain includes physical or motor skills. The affective domain involves expression of feeling about attitudes, interests, and values. Most learning involves all three domains.

Make material meaningful

Another way to facilitate learning is to relate material to the student's lifestyle -- and to recognize incompatibilities. The more meaningful material is to a student, the quicker and easier it will be learned.

Allow immediate application of knowledge

Giving the student the opportunity to apply his or her new knowledge and skills reinforces learning and builds confidence. This immediate application translates learning to the "real world" and provides an opportunity for problem solving, feedback, and emotional support.

Plan for periodic rests

While you may want the students to push ahead until they have learned everything on the teaching plan, remember that periodic plateaus occur normally in learning. When your instructions are especially complex or lengthy, your students may feel overwhelmed and appear unreceptive to your teaching. Be sure to recognize these signs of mental fatigue and let the students relax. (You too can use these periods - to review your teaching plan and make any necessary adjustments.)

Tell your students how they are progressing

Learning is made easier when the students are aware of their progress. Positive feedback can motivate them to greater effort because it makes their goal seem attainable. Also, ask your students how they feel they are doing. They probably want to take part in assessing their own progress toward learning goals, and their input can guide your feedback. You will find their reactions are usually based on what "feels right."

Reward desired learning with praise

Praising desired learning outcomes or behavior improves the chances that the students will retain the material or repeat the behavior. Praising your students' successes associates the desired learning goal with a sense of growing and accepted competence. Reassuring them that they have learned the desired material or technique can help them retain and refine it.

http://honolulu.hawaii.edu/intranet/committees/FacDevCom/guidebk/teachtip/enhance.htm

INTRODUCTION TO TEXT TYPES; a whole overview

We find so many texts. Some of us just read them, and the others try to make them written. Based on generic structure and language feature dominantly used, texts are divided into several types. They are narrative, recount, descriptive, report, explanation, analytical exposition, hortatory exposition, procedure, discussion, review, anecdote, spoof, and news item. These variations are known as GENRES.

NARRATIVE
Purpose: To amuse/entertain the readers and to tell a story
Generic Structure:
1. Orientation
2. Evaluation
3. Complication
4. Resolution
5. Reorientation
Dominant Language Features:
1. Using Past Tense
2. Using action verb
3. Chronologically arranged

RECOUNT
Purpose: to retell something that happened in the past and to tell a series of past event
Generic Structure:
1. Orientation
2. Event(s)
3. Reorientation
Dominant Language Features:
1. Using Past Tense
2. Using action verb
3. Using adjectives

EXPLANATION
Purpose: To explain the processes involved in the formation or working of natural or socio-cultural phenomena.
Generic Structure:
1. General statement
2. Explanation
3. Closing
Dominant Language Features:
1. Using Simple Present Tense
2. Using action verbs
3. Using passive voice
4. Using noun phrase
5. Using adverbial phrase
6. Using technical terms
7. Using general and abstract noun
8. Using conjunction of time and cause-effect.

REPORT
Purpose: to presents information about something, as it is.
Generic Structure
1. General classification
2. Description
Dominant Language Feature
1. Introducing group or general aspect
2. Using conditional logical connection
3. Using Simple Present Tense

DESCRIPTIVE
Purpose: to describe a particular person, place or thing in detail.
Dominant Generic Structure:
1. Identification
2. Description
Language Features:
1. Using Simple Present Tense
2. Using action verb
3. Using adverb
4. Using special technical terms

ANALYTICAL EXPOSITION
Purpose: To reveal the readers that something is the important case
Generic Structure:
1. Thesis
2. Arguments
3. Reiteration/Conclusion
Dominant Language Features:
1. Using modals
2. Using action verbs
3. Using thinking verbs
4. Using adverbs
5. Using adjective
6. Using technical terms
7. Using general and abstract noun
8. Using connectives/transition

HORTATORY EXPOSITION
Purpose: to persuade the readers that something should or should not be the case or be done
Generic Structure:
1. Thesis
2. Arguments
3. Recommendation
Dominant Language features:
1. Using Simple Present Tense
2. Using modals
3. Using action verbs
4. Using thinking verbs
5. Using adverbs
6. Using adjective
7. Using technical terms
8. Using general and abstract noun
9. Using connectives/transition

PROCEDURE
Purpose: to help readers how to do or make something completely
Generic Structure:
1. Goal/Aim
2. Materials/Equipments
3. Steps/Methods
Dominant Language Features:
1. Using Simple Present Tense
2. Using Imperatives sentence
3. Using adverb
4. Using technical terms

DISCUSSION
Purpose: to present information and opinions about issues in more one side of an issue (‘For/Pros’ and ‘Against/Cons’)
Generic Structure:
1. Issue
2. Arguments for and against
3. Conclusion
Dominant Language Features:
1. Using Simple Present Tense
2. Use of relating verb/to be
3. Using thinking verb
4. Using general and abstract noun
5. Using conjunction/transition
6. Using modality
7. Using adverb of manner

REVIEW
Purpose: to critique or evaluate an art work or event for a public audience
dominant Generic Structure:
1. Orientation
2. Evaluation
3. Interpretative Recount
4. Evaluation
5. Evaluative Summation
Dominant Language features:
1. Focus on specific participants
2. Using adjectives
3. Using long and complex clauses
4. Using metaphor

ANECDOTE
Purpose: to share with others an account of an unusual or amusing incident
Generic Structure:
1. Abstract
2. Orientation
3. Crisis
4. Reaction
5. Coda.
Dominant Language Features:
1. Using exclamations, rhetorical question or intensifiers
2. Using material process
3. Using temporal conjunctions

SPOOF
Purpose: to tell an event with a humorous twist and entertain the readers
Generic Structure:
1. Orientation
2. Event(s)
3. Twist
Dominant Language Features:
1. Using Past Tense
2. Using action verb
3. Using adverb
4. Chronologically arranged

NEWS ITEM
Purpose: to inform readers about events of the day which are considered newsworthy or important
Dominant Generic Structure:
1. Newsworthy event(s)
2. Background event(s)
3. Sources
Dominant Language Features:
1. Short, telegraphic information about story captured in headline
2. Using action verbs
3. Using saying verbs
4. Using adverbs : time, place and manner.

Celebrity Collage by MyHeritage

MyHeritage: Family trees - Genealogy - Celebrities - Collage - Morph

Sayembara Menulis Novel DKJ 2008

Sayembara Menulis Novel Dewan Kesenian Jakarta 2008

Untuk merangsang dan meningkatkan kreativitas pengarang Indonesia dalam penulisan novel, Dewan Kesenian Jakarta kembali menyelenggarakan Sayembara Menulis Novel. Lewat sayembara ini, DKJ berharap akan lahir novel-novel terbaik, baik dari pengarang Indonesia yang sudah punya nama maupun pemula, yang memperlihatkan kebaruan dalam bentuk dan isi.

Ketentuan Umum

- Peserta adalah warga negara Indonesia (dibuktikan dengan Kartu Tanda Penduduk atau bukti identitas lainnya).
- Peserta boleh mengirimkan lebih dari satu naskah.
- Naskah belum pernah dipublikasikan dalam bentuk apa pun, baik sebagian maupun seluruhnya.
- Naskah tidak sedang diikutkan dalam sayembara serupa
- Naskah dan judul ditulis dalam bahasa Indonesia yang baik
- Tema bebas

Ketentuan Khusus

- Panjang naskah minimal 100 halaman A4, 1,5 spasi, Times New Roman 12
- Peserta menyertakan biodata dan alamat lengkap dalam lembar tersendiri, di luar naskah
- Lima salinan naskah yang diketik dan dijilid dikirim ke:

Panitia Sayembara Menulis Novel DKJ 2008
Dewan Kesenian Jakarta
Jl. Cikini Raya 73
Jakarta 10330
Telp. 021-3193 7639 / 316 2780
- Batas akhir pengiriman naskah: 31 Agustus 2008 (cap pos atau diantar langsung)

Lain-lain

- Para Pemenang akan diumumkan dalam Malam Anugerah Sayembara Menulis Novel DKJ 2008 di Taman Ismail Marzuki, Jakarta, pada akhir Desember 2008
- Hak Cipta dan hak penerbitan naskah peserta sepenuhnya berada pada penulis
- Keputusan Dewan Juri tidak dapat diganggu gugat dan tidak diadakan surat-menyurat
- Pajak ditanggung pemenang
- Sayembara ini tertutup bagi anggota Dewan Kesenian Jakarta Periode 2006—2009

Hadiah

Juara I Rp 20.000.000
Juara II Rp 15.000.000
Juara III Rp 12.500.000

source: http://duniaanda.com/sayembara-menulis-novel-dewan-kesenian-jakarta-2008.htm#more-105

Sayembara Menulis

DIPERPANJANG HINGGA
31 OKTOBER 2008!

TEMA

QUO VADIS KEBUDAYAAN DAYAK.

TUJUAN

Sayembara menulis ini diselenggarakan dengan maksud menggugah para insan yang peduli terhadap eksistensi kebudayaan Dayak baik pada masa lampau, kini maupun masa yang akan datang. Para peserta diharapkan mampu memberikan pemikiran kritis tentang konsep-konsep dasar dan implementasinya tentang bagaimana peningkatan dan pengembangan kebudayaan Dayak saat ini maupun yang akan datang.

PESERTA

Sayembara ini terbuka untuk umum terkecuali aktivis Institut Dayakologi.

PERSYARATAN DAN KETENTUAN

1. Karya tulis merupakan karya asli dari penulis dan belum pernah dipublikasikan di media mana pun serta belum pernah dipresentasikan di forum apapun.
2. Aspek keaslian (orisinalitas) dari karya tulis akan menjadi salah satu prioritas penilaian.
3. Peserta hanya dapat mengirimkan 1 (satu) karya tulis.
4. Semua karya tulis yang dikirim sepenuhnya akan menjadi hak milik panitia sayembara termasuk hak ciptanya.
5. Keputusan tim juri adalah final dan tidak dapat diganggu gugat.
6. Jenis karya tulis sepenuhnya menjadi kreativitas peserta sesuai kualifikasi dan spesifikasinya (bebas memilih apakah esai/opini, makalah/jurnal, semi ilmiah atau ilmiah).
7. Panjang tulisan minimal 10 halaman, maksimal 20 halaman.
8. Format tulisan: tipe huruf (font) Times New Roman, font size 12 dan 2 spasi.
9. Batas waktu penerimaan karya tulis oleh panitia adalah pada tanggal 31 Oktober 2008, pukul 17.00 WIB.
10. Karya tulis disusun menggunakan Bahasa Indonesia atau Bahasa Inggris yang baik dan benar.
11. Karya tulis tidak hanya mencakup pembahasan secara teoritis tetapi juga penerapan, pengembangan atau implementasi atas teori yang dibahas di dalamnya.
12. Tim juri akan menetapkan 10 (sepuluh) calon finalis untuk kemudian menetapkan 3 (tiga) orang pemenang dan 1 (satu) orang dengan kriteria karya tulis menarik. Surat penetapan sebagai pemenang akan dikirimkan kepada masing-masing finalis.
13. Ketiga pemenang dan 1 (satu) karya tulis berkriteria menarik juga akan diumumkan melalui Majalah Kalimantan Review, Harian Pontianak Post, Ruai TV, Radio Sonora dan Radio Rama.
14. Tulisan dikirim berupa file elektronik atau print out ke alamat:
PANITIA SAYEMBARA MENULIS Institut Dayakologi
Kompleks Bumi Indah Khatulistiwa
Jl. Budi Utomo Blok B No. 4
Pontianak 78241
Email: sayembaramenulis@dayakology.org

PENGHARGAAN

Uang tunai:
1. Terbaik Pertama: Rp. 5.000.000,-
2. Terbaik Kedua: Rp. 3.000.000,-
3. Terbaik Ketiga Rp. 1.000.000,-
4. Karya tulis berkategori menarik: Hadiah hiburan

DEWAN JURI

1. John Bamba
2. Nico Andasputra
3. Stefanus Masiun
4. Priyono Pasti
5. Abdon Nababan

INFORMASI

Untuk informasi lebih lanjut dapat menghubungi:
PANITIA SAYEMBARA MENULIS Institut Dayakologi
Kompleks Bumi Indah Khatulistiwa
Jl. Budi Utomo Blok B No. 4
Pontianak 78241
Telp. (0561) 884567
Fax. (0561) 883135
Email: sayembaramenulis@dayakology.org
(Contact Person: Frans Lakon - 081345797272, Andika Pasti - 081352067468, Anton - 08125753661)


source: http://www.dayakology.org/sayembara/

Pisang Gepeng

Bahan:
5 bh pisang tanduk
100 gr margarin
50 gr gula halus

Cara membuat:Pisang Gepeng

Bahan:
5 bh pisang tanduk
100 gr margarin
50 gr gula halus

Cara membuat:
1. Kupas pisang hingga bersih.
2. Panaskan margarin, masukkan pisang, masak hingga pisang layu, balik-balik hingga rata. Angkat pisang, gepengkan pisang hingga datar.
3. Masukkan kembali dalam margarin masak hingga berwarna kecokelatan. Angkat, sajikan dengan taburan gula halus.

Untuk 5 orang

1. Kupas pisang hingga bersih.
2. Panaskan margarin, masukkan pisang, masak hingga pisang layu, balik-balik hingga rata. Angkat pisang, gepengkan pisang hingga datar.
3. Masukkan kembali dalam margarin masak hingga berwarna kecokelatan. Angkat, sajikan dengan taburan gula halus.

Untuk 5 orang

source: http://www.tabloidnova.com/article.php?name=/pisang-gepeng&channel=sedap%2Fkue%2Fresep_hari_ini

Hosh...hosh...

Kyaa.... tadi abis maghrib baru sampai jogja. Lumayang...masih kerasa capeknya. tapi terobati karena hati senang...ketemu bapak...ma nenek, maen ampe puas ma para keponakan...

Sandera 1

“Kenapa tho kamu nggak mau dengerin omongan bapak?”

“Bukannya Lia nggak mau dengerin bapak, tapi ini memang sudah jadi keputusan Lia, Pak.”

“Keputusan apa? Mbok ya dipikir dulu dengan matang.”

“Sudah Lia pertimbangkan, Pak. Berkali-kali malah. Dan Lia tetap pada pilihan Lia.”

“Kamu itu memang keras kepala. Kalo milih itu mbok ya lihat-lihat… yang prospektif buat masa depan.”

“Menurut Lia itu juga prokpektif. Lagipula Lia sudah terlanjur suka.”

“Suka aja nggak cukup jadi modal, Nduk.”

“Iya, Lia tahu Pak. Lia juga tidak asal pilih. Lia udah gede Pak. Sudah bisa nentuin pilihan Lia sendiri. Kenapa sih Bapak tidak percaya sama pilihan Lia?”

“Bukannya Bapak tidak percaya. Bapak itu Cuma ndak ingin kamu nyesel di kemudian hari. Kamu itu baru anak kemarin sore. Belum banyak makan asam garam kehidupan ya Nduk.”

“Udah, bapak tenang aja. Lia cinta sama pilihan Lia. Lagipula, nggak ada salahnya kan?”

“Lalu apa yang kamu harapkan dari pilihanmu itu? Apa dia bisa membuatmu bahagia?

“Lia pikir … iya bapak.”

“Ya sudah kalo itu sudah jadi keputusanmu.”
...to be continued

Acknowledgements of My Thesis

Alhamdulillahirabbil ‘alamin. I would like to start off my words here by thanking Allah SWT, The Cherisher, The Merciful and The Sustainer, for His mercy, love, and strength granted for me so that I have been able to finish this thesis.

Besides, I fell so indebted to many people who played a part in my thesis accomplishment. Without them, this ‘little masterpiece’ would have never been done as better as I just did. Thus, let me appreciate them all to express my gratitude to them.

First, I would like to express my gratitude to both my consultants, Dr. Gunawan, my first consultant, and Drs. Suharso, my second consultant, for their time, and knowledge. Patiently, they had guided me in developing ideas, correcting misplaced words, improper dictions and structures, as well as shared their knowledge. But, the most important thing for me is they showed me how to research myself, both inside and outside.

Second, my gratitude is also addressed to my family. To my loving Mom and Dad, I want to say “I know, it was too late for me to present you this. But thank you for trusting me on it. This is the way I learn. Finally, I did it. This is for you”. To my lovely sister ‘Niek’ and brother ‘Ayik’ I also want to say “Thanks for trusting me. Your great supports gave me strength. Actually, the hardest failure comes from oneself. Ganbatte kudasai ne”.

Third, many respects are also devoted to all lecturers at the English Language Education Department who always guided me during my study here and taught me about many priceless things in this life. You do help me to sign out the blind maps of my life.

Fourth, my massive thanks also go to persons who inspire and comfort me during this thesis-making-process. Thanks: to Charlie’s angels plus (Ifa Carter, Oepyx Archer,and Isti Awien) with the words “Thanks for the belief we share together. You put a smile on my face and a spring in my step.”; to Anis Ich with the words “Thanks. You are like a magic book for me. I never get enough to read every single line in your pages.”; to Sholihin with the words “Thanks for a bunch of knowledge about writing. It means a lot to me. ”; to Mbak Zaki with the words “Thank you for bringing me to Maiyah Land and introducing me to the fresh sensation of the Kyai Kanjeng’s Mocopat Syafaat among the exhausting days of my thesis making. This does brighten my days.”; to A-14B sweet gals (especially to Mbak Ambar, Rina, Lina, Inun, Andri, Yukyak, Vetty, Nurul, Yuli, Juleha, Gina, Wantie, Lastri and Windha) with the words“Thanks for giving me a hommy place away from home.”; to Khafidz, with the words “You colored my days. You’re still the best friend that anyone could have. Thanks for all.” ; to the 99ers (especially for Ririn, Naser, Prast, Siti, Nisfi, Suci, Ika, Inoeng) with the words “Thank you for the solid friendship, you bring me back to earth if I get a little too full of myself” ; to Vima, with the words “You give me the inspiration to reach for my dreams. Thanks for being my partner as well as my competitor.”; to Ms. Pupud, with the words “Thank you for teaching me. You make each day a new beginning, filled with wonder and joy.”

Fifth, I also would like to thanks to EDSA, Shield Magazine, Relung Theatre, Seven Theatre, UKM Penelitian, PSJ UGM, Aliyya, Syafaat Centre, Hafara Sunday School, Pesantren Raudhatul Muttaqien, my fellows and students in SD Muhammadiah Sapen, SDN Mejing II, Puri Bahasa as well, and also special for Anjar Ndut, Noey, Iwied, Isti Egi, Zartini, Younee, Marcee, Ms.Eko, Budi and Andi, with the words “Thanks for helping me making a better portrait of Eli. You all are my puzzles of love. Each part of you complete my life journey.”. To Gunawan Fans Club’s members I want to say“I expect you all a sweet reunion someday“, to my informants “You enlighten my load. Thank you for being so cooperative with me.” ; to everybody who had ever helped me but I could not mention your name one by one, I want to say“Thank you. It is hardly possible for me to mention you all by name. Once again, thank you. May Allah bless you.

Finally, it is needless to say that my thesis is still far from being perfect eventhough I have made my best. Though it is so, I expect that this thesis contributes benefits to all readers and those who are involved in this

Jogjakarta, 10 January 2007

The writer

AN ABSTRACT OF MY THESIS

THE CHARACTERISTICS OF STUDENTS’ LANGUAGE AWARENESS

IN ENGLISH WRITING

AT THE ENGLISH LANGUAGE EDUCATION DEPARTMENT, FBS, UNY

SEMESTER III, ACADEMIC YEAR 2003/2004

Written by:

Eliana Candrawati

ABSTRACT

This research study is aimed at finding and describing the characteristics of students’ language awareness in English writing at the English Language Education Department, FBS, UNY, semester III, academic year 2003/2004.

This research study is a descriptive qualitative research. The subjects of this research were the students of Writing III, and their final assignment as the writing product. The data of the research were language awareness elements. The data are drawn from the students’ writing product as documents, and in-depth interview transcripts. The key instrument of the research was the researcher herself. The length of time in collecting the data depended on the redundancy of the data. The constant comparative method was used to analyze the data. To get trustworthiness, the researcher used the triangulation techniques.

The results of the research show that the students’ language awareness was categorized into three major categories: the low level, the medium level and the high level of students’ language awareness. The low level was classified into caused-by-low-motivation and effect. Further, the caused-by-low-motivation category was divided into limited language mastery, which consisted of four foci: grammar, punctuation, diction and spelling, and negative attitude, which was classified into five foci, namely, being careless, being dishonest, being lazy to check works, delaying habit, and limited preparation. Meanwhile, the effect category was divided into causing ineffectiveness, which was classified into four, namely, incorrect structure, incorrect spelling, misfragmented words/sentences and misplaced punctuations, causing inefficiency, which consisted of vague expressions, mistyped words, and looser cohesion, and ignoring originality. The medium level was divided into caused-by medium-motivation and effect. The caused-by-medium-motivation category was divided into average language mastery, which was classified into two, namely, just to follow rules, and just to translate words by words, average motivation, and self-orientation attitude. The effect category consisted of: in gaining effectiveness, which was classified into trapped in commonly-used words and applying simple clauses, and in relation with attitude, which consisted of applying common expression and self-improvement orientation. The high level was divided into caused-by high-motivation and effect. The caused-by-high-motivation category was divided into high consideration, which consisted of three foci: for grammar choices, for punctuation choices, and for diction choices, better preparation, and positive attitude. The effect category was divided into four: producing effectiveness, which was divided into three: accurate sentence structure, accurate diction, and correct punctuation, producing efficiency, which consisted of more message clarity, more various expression, more specific expression, and tighter cohesion, and considering audience. The conclusions show that the students tend to have low language awareness. Based on the implications, the suggestions are the lecturer should recognize the students’ needs and characteristics. A pre-test or questionnaire will be an effective way to measure them. Then, a written reflection submitted after the class is over can be used as one of the means to monitor the students’ progress. Meanwhile, the students should try to motivate themselves to find the most interesting thing to do to increase their writing ability.

A POEM FOR AN ANGEL

Last Sunday, I just cleaned up my old files from my miscellany box when I found my old flowerish small brown box which contained some pieces of important paper from my friends. One of them is a piece of paper from ‘eeva carter’. Well, actually her real name is Arifah Mardiningrum. She’s one of my best friends (when I was a university student, and now, she’s still the best friend I could have :D) and one of the Charlie’s Angels Plus personnels as well:D . Then we crowned her a name of ‘eeva carter’ because she’s crazy about ‘Nick Carter’. (Well, it’s just the same when she calls me using this name: ‘Eliana F_ r _ _r’ …uhmm..It’s better for me not to write my ‘boo’ since it had something to do with my old story).

Anyway, on my 25^th birthday, she gave me a poem, a special poem for me. Here it is the poem.

ANGEL

I’m the angel for me

I’m the angel for my family

And they’re angels for me

I’m the angel for my friends

And they’re angels for me

I’m the angel for this life

‘Coz this life is an angel for me

Angel is a help to learn

Angel is a help to live

Angel is a help to love

And we’re all the angels of our heart

-Eeva -

It’s one of the best poems I’ve ever had. It’s a proof as well that I have an angel…and I’m an angel for her…and she’s an angel for me. And…what do you think? Nice, isn’t it? Then would you be my angel too?

LISTEN! SHELTER SURROUNDS YOU

You'll find me in the wind, the seed,
in the elephant's triumphant roar.
I am in the pearls of your elders,
the dirt on the far side of the moon,
the ice under the coats of Jupiter.
Naked person, listen to the hawk's cry.
Didn't you once see five hawks
careening againts the dawn.
I have been humming and hammering
through the years you took to bed, in the moments
you let life fly from your hands
to live your life again, simple days
of cooking and dancing to the radio
What else is there really?
This is you. You can ride the pony
to enter your own life,
be buried in your own clothes.
Your flaws can be touched and loved.

-Janell Moon-

KEEP YOUR HEALTH

Thank You. Finally I could show this soulful- face again in front of this screen after a couple of days I was laid on my bed because of a fever. Well, it should be a very-nice weekend for me...but...

WHEN EVERYTHING IS IN A MESS...

I usually take a deep breath, sit for a while, take a note, make some to-do-lists, then decide the priority. Well, it sounds easy but somehow a little bit hard to do. A part of it can be my mistake. It's because of me who is unable to deal with the problem. It should be a challenge to make a kinda
Right now, the mess is in front of me. It seems that it waits for me to come into. Will I come in? Perhaps...if I don't get prepare for that... progresiveness on how to deal with a hurry sickness. It's about the management of life.

A New Day Has Come

Finally, after the 'pathetic days' , my parents allowed my sister to leave Jogja for Jakarta.
I know it's her dream to work there and she sees it as a chance and as a stepping stone for her carrier in the future time. it's just a matter of responsibility.

yah...setiap orang berhak mengejar mimpi mereka. demi mimpi mereka sanggup berkorban apapun. sepertinya... dengan punya mimpi hidup akan terlihat gregetnya, kita jadi tahu apa dan kemana arah perjuangan kita. tapi kenapa masih ada orang yang mencibir manakala tahu ada seseorang yang sedang mengejar mimpinya???

Lessons in Logic

If your father is a poor man,
it is your fate but,
if your father-in-law is a poor man,
it’s your stupidity.
………… ……… ……… ……… ……… ……… ………
I was born intelligent -
education ruined me.
………… ……… ……… ……… ……… ……… ………
Practice makes perfect…..
But nobody’s perfect….. .
so why practice?
………… ……… ……… ……… ……… ……… ………
If it’s true that we are here to help others,
then what exactly are the others here for?
………… ……… ……… ……… ……… ……… ………
Since light travels faster than sound,
people appear bright until you hear them speak.
………… ……… ……… ……… ……… ……… ………
How come ‘abbreviated’ is such a long word?
………… ……… ……… ……… ……… ……… ………
Money is not everything.
There’s Mastercard & Visa.
………… ……… ……… ……… ……… ……… ………
One should love animals.
They are so tasty.
………… ……… ……… ……… ……… ……… ……… ……… …
Behind every successful man, there is a woman
And behind every unsuccessful man, there are two.
………… ……… ……… ……… ……… ……… ………
Every man should marry.
After all, happiness is not the only thing in
life.
………… ……… ……… ……… ……… ……… ………
The wise never marry.
and when they marry they become otherwise.
………… ……… ……… ……… ……… ……… ………
Success is a relative term.
It brings so many relatives.
………… ……… ……… ……… ……… ……… ………
Never put off the work till tomorrow
what you can put off today.
………… ……… ……… ……… ……… ……… ………
‘Your future depends on your dreams’
So go to sleep
………… ……… ……… ……… ……… ……… ………
There should be a better way to start a day
Than waking up every morning
………… ……… ……… ……… ……… ……… ………
‘Hard work never killed anybody’
But why take the risk
………… ……… ……… ……… ……… ……… ………
‘Work fascinates me’
I can look at it for hours
………… ……… ……… ……… ……… ……… ………
God made relatives;
Thank God we can choose our friends.
………… ……… ……… ……… ……… ……… ………
The more you learn, the more you know,
The more you know, the more you forget
The more you forget, the less you know
So.. why learn.
………… ……… ……… ……… ……… ……… ………
A bus station is where a bus stops.
A train station is where a train stops.
On my desk, I have a work station….
what more can I say……..

from: http://www.topmdi.com/log/?p=70

THOSE WHO ARE MAKING MERRY TODAY

"Those who do not increase dedication to worship of God as they grow older are unfortunate, for they are making a loss at time when they could be making profit. If they understood this, they would weep for what they finds amusing today."

-Fetullah Gullen-

Following the Path to My Faith

Here i am today, sitting on my cozy hard pink chair in my bedroom, facing to my computer screen, reading on a text, and translating the content of it. There are 15 pages more which should i finish today. Yeah, little bit tiring actually, but i love it so much, coz its content is absolutely amazing. When i read its every single line, i feel as if i reread HAMKA's Tasauf Modern but it is in a more up-to-date setting.
Yeah, I enjoy reading books related to sufism. and the text i'm translating now is about sufism and Fetullah Gullen's thinking about it. You know then why i like doing it. It's about true love (something which is impossible to express with words, for love is an emotional state that can be understood only by the lover) and the balance between the physical and the spiritual. yeah, it's like a sound momentum when i got this text from my friend. i felt it's a sign from Him to show me how to get closer to Him, 'coz these days i was busy with my own carnal business.

Here is one of the best parts of his words that i like.
"Love makes us forget our existence, and annihilates our existence in the existence of our beloved. It therefore requires the lover always to want the beloved, and thus to dedicate himself or herself, without expecting any retur, completely to the desire of the beloved."

In short, i looooooove it sooooooo much. actually, i still want to write more about it and my feeling on it. unfortunately, i must stop and continue my work. let's see then.


PS: tonight i wanna attend Cak Nun's maiyahan in Bantul. i long for it, and i have missed it for some times. but i'm not sure whether i can come or not. i have a pile of work which hasn't finished yet. oh no.

When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out in Your Arms

Seorang teman mengirimi saya sebuah cerita tentang perceraian ini. Dan ketika saya membacanya, saya ingin cerita ini juga menginspirasi teman-teman yang lain sebagai bahan perenungan seandainya api cinta dalam rumah tangga mulai surut dikarenakan rutinitas yang mulai membelenggu, karena ego yang enggan tunduk mengalah, atau hal-hal lain yang membuat kita lupa pada apa yang sudah kita ikrarkan didepan Allah. Sekedar ingin berbagi bahwa ternyata ada begitu banyak cinta yang bernaung dalam rumah kita yang nantinya akan melangkah pergi dengan kesedihan yang mendalam seandainya kita hanya larut dengan ego dan emosi kita. Tidak ada yang namanya tak ada pilihan. Selalu ada pilihan. Dan kita adalah penentunya. Saya jadi ingat ungkapan Paulo Coelho dalam bukunya “The Alchemist” bahwa dalam setiap perjalanan selalu diawali dengan keberuntungan bagi sang pemula dan diakhiri dengan ujian berat bagi sang pemenang.

Yah….akan selalu ada musim penghujan diantara musim-musim yang berlalu yang menyapa perjalanan pernikahan kita. Dan hujan memang harus turun bagi setiap jiwa yang dahaga agar kita bisa menemukan hakekat kesegaran dibaliknya. Inilah cerita itu temanku.

Pada hari pernikahanku, aku membopong istriku. Mobil pengantin berhenti didepan flat kami yg cuma berkamar satu. Sahabat2ku menyuruhku untuk membopongnya begitu keluar dari mobil. Jadi kubopong ia memasuki rumah kami. Ia kelihatan malu2. Aku adalah seorang pengantin pria yg sangat bahagia.

Ini adalah keja dian 10 tahun yg lalu. Hari2 selanjutnya berlalu demikian simpel seperti secangkir air bening: Kami mempunyai seorang anak, saya terjun ke dunia usaha dan berusaha untuk menghasilkan banyak uang. Begitu kemakmuran meningkat, jalinan kasih diantara kami pun semakin surut.

Ia adalah pegawai sipil. Setiap pagi kami berangkat kerja bersama2 dan sampai dirumah juga pada waktu yg bersamaan. Anak kami sedang belajar di luar negeri.

Perkawinan kami kelihatan bahagia. Tapi ketenangan hidup berubah dipengaruhi oleh perubahan yg tidak kusangka2.

Dew hadir dalam kehidupanku. Waktu itu adalah hari yg cerah. Aku berdiri di balkon. dengan Dew yg sedang merangkulku. H atik u sekali lagi terbenam dalam aliran

cintanya. ini adalah apartment yg kubelikan untuknya.

Dew berkata , "Kamu adalah jenis pria terbaik yg menarik para gadis."

Kata2nya tiba-tiba mengingatkanku pada istriku. Ketika kami baru menikah, istriku pernah berkata, "Pria sepertimu, begitu sukses, akan menjadi sangat menarik bagi para gadis."

Berpikir tentang ini, Aku menjadi ragu2. Aku tahu kalo aku telah menghianati istriku. Tapi aku tidak sanggup menghentikannya. Aku melepaskan tangan Dew dan berkata, "Kamu harus pergi membeli beberapa perabot, O.K.? Aku ada sedikit urusan dikantor" Kelihatan ia jadi tidak senang karena aku telah berjanji menemaninya.

Pada saat tersebut,ide perceraian menjadi semakin jelas dipikiranku walaupun kelihatan tidak mungkin. Bagaimanapun, aku merasa sangat sulit untuk membicarakan hal ini pada istriku. Walau bagaimanapun ku jelaskan, ia pasti akan sangat terluka. Sejujurnya,ia adalah seorang istri yg baik. Setiap malam ia sibuk menyiapkan makan malam. Aku duduk santai didepan TV. Makan malam segera tersedia. Lalu kami akan menonton TV sama2. Atau, Aku akan menghidupkan komputer, membayangkan tubuh Dew. Ini adalah hiburan bagiku.

Suatu hari aku berbicara dalam guyon, "Seandainya kita bercerai, apa yg akan kau lakukan?"

Ia menatap padaku selama beberapa detik tanpa bersuara. Kenyataannya ia percaya bahwa perceraian adalah sesuatu yg sangat jauh dari ia. Aku tidak bisa

membayangkan bagaimana ia akan menghadapi kenyataan jika tahu bahwa aku serius.

Ketika istriku mengunjungi kantorku, Dew baru saja keluar dari ruanganku. Hampir seluruh staff menatap istriku dengan mata penuh simpati dan berusaha untuk menyembunyikan segala sesuatu selama berbicara dengan ia... Ia kelihatan sedikit kecurigaan. Ia berusaha tersenyum pada bawahan2ku. Tapi aku membaca ada

kelukaan di matanya.

Sekali lagi, Dew berkata padaku, "Dave, ceraikan ia, O.K.? Lalu kita akan hidup bersama."

Aku mengangguk. Aku tahu aku tidak boleh ragu2 lagi.

Ketika malam itu istriku menyiapkan makan malam, kupegang tangannya, " Ada sesuatu yg harus kukatakan"

Ia duduk diam dan makan tanpa bersuara. Sekali lagi aku melihat ada luka dimatanya. Tiba2 aku tidak tahu harus berkata apa. Tapi ia tahu kalo aku terus

berpikir.

"Aku ingin bercerai", ku ungkapkan topik ini dengan serius tapi tenang.

Ia seperti tidak terpengaruh oleh kata2ku, tapi ia bertanya secara lembut, "Kenapa?"

"Aku serius." Aku menghindari pertanyaannya.

Jawaban ini membuat ia sangat marah. Ia melemparkan sumpit dan berteriak kepadaku, "Kamu bukan laki2!!!".

Pada malam itu, kami sekali saling membisu. Ia sedang menangis... Aku tahu kalau ia ingin tahu apa yg telah terjadi dengan perkawinan kami. Tapi aku tidak bisa

memberikan jawaban yg memuaskan sebab hatiku telah dibawa pergi oleh Dew. Dengan perasaan yg amat bersalah, Aku menuliskan surai perceraian dimana

istriku memperoleh rumah, mobil dan 30% saham dari perusahaanku. Ia memandangnya sekilas dan mengoyaknya jadi beberapa bagian...

Aku merasakan sakit dalam hati. Wanita yg telah 10 tahun hidup bersamaku sekarang menjadi seorang yg asing dalam hidupku. Tapi aku tidak bisa mengembalikan apa yg telah kuucapkan. Akhirnya ia menangis dengan keras di depanku, dimana hal tersebut tidak pernah kulihat sebelumnya. Bagiku, tangisannya merupakan suatu pembebasan untukku. Ide perceraian telah menghantuiku dalam beberapa minggu ini dan sekarang sungguh2 telah terjadi...

Pada larut malam, aku kembali ke rumah setelah menemui klienku. Aku melihat ia sedang menulis sesuatu. Karena capek aku segera ketiduran. Ketika aku terbangun

tengah malam, aku melihat ia masih menulis. Aku tertidur kembali.

Ia menuliskan syarat2 dari perceraiannya: ia tidak menginginkan apapun dariku, tapi aku harus memberikan waktu sebulan sebelum menceraikannya, dan dalam waktu

sebulan itu kami harus hidup bersama seperti biasanya.

Alasannya sangat sederhana: Anak kami akan segera menyelesaikkan pendidikannya dan liburannya adalah sebulan lagi dan ia tidak ingin anak kami melihat kehancuran rumah tangga kami.

Ia menyerahkan persyaratan tersebut dan bertanya, "Dave, apakah kamu masih ingat bagaimana aku memasuki rumah kita ketika pada hari pernikahan kita?"

Pertanyaan ini tiba2 mengembalikan beberapa kenangan indah kepadaku. Aku mengangguk dan mengiyakan.

"Kamu membopongku dilenganmu", katanya, "Jadi aku punya sebuah permintaan, yaitu kamu akan tetap membopongkuku pada waktu perceraian kita. Dari sekarang sampai akhir bulan ini, setiap pagi kamu harus membopongku keluar dari kamar tidur ke pintu."

Aku menerima dengan senyum. Aku tahu ia merindukan beberapa kenangan indah yg telah berlalu dan berharap perkawinannya diakhiri dengan suasana romantis.

Aku memberitahukan Dew soal syarat2 perceraian dari istriku. Ia tertawa keras dan berpikir itu tidak ada gunanya.

"Bagaimanapun trik yg ia lakukan,ia harus menghadapi hasil dari perceraian ini," ia mencemooh. Kata2nya membuatku merasa tidak enak.

Istriku dan aku tidak mengadakan kontak badan lagi sejak kukatakan perceraian itu. kami saling menganggap orang asing. Jadi ketika aku membopongnya dihari pertama, kami kelihatan salah tingkah. Anak kami menepuk punggung kami, "Wah, papa membopong mama, mesra sekali" Kata2nya membuatku merasa sakit... Dari

kamar tidur ke ruang duduk, lalu ke pintu, aku berjalan 10 meter dengan ia dalam lenganku. Ia memejamkan mata dan berkata dengan lembut, "Mari kita mulai hari ini,

jangan memberitahukan pada anak kita." Aku mengangguk,merasa sedikit bimbang. Aku melepaskan ia di pintu. Ia pergi menunggu bus, dan aku pergi ke kantor.

Pada hari kedua, bagi kami terasa lebih mudah. Ia merebah di dadaku, Kami begitu dekat sampai2 aku bisa mencium wangi di bajunya. Aku menyadari bahwa aku

telah sangat lama tidak melihat dengan mesra wanita ini. Aku melihat bahwa ia tidak muda lagi. Beberapa kerut tampak di wajahnya.

Pada hari ketiga, ia berbisik padaku, "Kebun diluar sedang dibongkar. Hati2 kalau kamu lewat sana ."

Hari keempat, ketika aku membangunkannya, aku merasa kalau kami masih mesra seperti sepasang suami istri dan aku masih membopong kekasihku dilenganku. Bayangan Dew menjadi samar.

Pada hari kelima dan enam, ia masih mengingatkan aku beberapa hal, seperti dimana ia telah menyimpan baju2ku yg telah ia setrika, aku harus hati2 saat

memasak, dll.

Aku mengangguk. Perasaan kedekatan terasa semakin erat. Aku tidak memberitahu Dew tentang ini. Aku merasa begitu ringan membopongnya. Berharap setiap hari pergi ke kantor bisa membuatku semakin kuat.

Aku berkata padanya, "Kelihatannya tidaklah sulit membopongmu sekarang". Ia sedang mencoba pakaiannya, aku sedang menunggu untuk membopongnya keluar. Ia berusaha mencoba beberapa tapi tidak bisa menemukan yg cocok. Lalu ia melihat, "Semua pakaianku kebesaran". Aku tersenyum. Tapi tiba2 aku menyadarinya sebab ia semakin kurus itu sebabnya aku bisa membopongnya

dengan ringan bukan disebabkan aku semakin kuat. Aku tahu ia mengubur semua kesedihannya dalam hati. Sekali lagi, aku merasakan perasaan sakit. Tanpa sadar ku sentuh kepalanya.

Anak kami masuk pada saat tersebut. "Pa, sudah waktunya membopong mama keluar" Baginya, melihat papanya sedang membopong mamanya keluar menjadi bagian yg penting. Ia memberikan isyarat agar anak kami mendekatinya dan merangkulnya dengan erat. Aku membalikkan wajah sebab aku takut aku akan berubah pikiran pada detik terakhir.

Aku menyanggah ia dilenganku, berjalan dari kamar tidur, melewati ruang duduk ke teras. Tangannya memegangku secara lembut dan alami. Aku menyanggah badannya dengan kuat seperti kami kembali ke hari pernikahan kami. Tapi ia kelihatan agak pucat dan kurus, membuatku sedih.

Pada hari terakhir, ketika aku membopongnya dilenganku, aku melangkah dengan berat. Anak kami telah kembali ke sekolah. Ia berkata, "Sesungguhnya aku berharap kamu akan membopongku sampai kita tua". Aku memeluknya dengan kuat dan berkata "Antara kita saling tidak menyadari bahwa kehidupan kita begitu mesra".

Aku melompat turun dari mobil tanpa sempat menguncinya.

Aku takut keterlambatan akan membuat pikiranku berubah.

Aku menaiki tangga.

Dew membuka pintu.

Aku berkata padanya, "Maaf Dew, Aku tidak ingin bercerai. Aku serius".

Ia melihat kepadaku, kaget. Ia menyentuh dahiku."Kamu tidak demam".

Kutepiskan tangannya dari dahiku "Maaf, Dew... Aku cuma bisa bilang maaf padamu. Aku tidak ingin bercerai. Kehidupan rumah tanggaku membosankan disebabkan ia dan aku tidak bisa merasakan nilai2 dari kehidupan, bukan disebabkan kami tidak saling mencintai lagi. Sekarang aku mengerti sejak aku membopongnya masuk ke rumahku, ia telah melahirkan anakku. Aku akan menjaganya sampai tua. Jadi aku minta maaf padamu"

Dew tiba2 seperti tersadar. Ia memberikan tamparan keras kepadaku dan menutup pintu dgn kencang dan tangisannya meledak.

Aku menuruni tangga dan pergi ke kantor. Dalam perjalanan aku melewati sebuah toko bunga, ku pesan sebuah buket bunga kesayangan istriku. Penjual bertanya "Apa yg mesti ia tulis dalam kartu ucapan?"

Aku tersenyum, dan menulis "Aku akan membopongmu setiap pagi sampai kita tua..."

Begitulah kawan. Mungkin ada yang menganggap cerita ini terlalu sentimentil. Tapi bagiku, kisah ini memberikanku pelajaran bahwa kadang kita perlu bantuan untuk menyadari apa yang sepatutnya kita sadari. Sebagian besar keindahan tidak tampak di mata, tapi terlihat dari hati. Dan…selalu ada pilihan untuk kita jemput, menggendong cinta kita sampai di tujuan atau membiarkannya berlalu dan menyisakan kedukaan di tengah jalan.

PS:. it's taken from my friend's email forward

SING YOUR WAY HOME

That’s the title of my favorite children song. Well, singing the song just reminds me to the old days of mine, when I did enjoyed much being a university student in the State University of Yogyakarta. This song was taught by Mr. and Mrs. C (well, that’s the way we called Mr. and Mrs. Harold Christensen, our lecturer.) when I was taking my special subject for teaching young learner during my English teaching class. Here is the song.

Sing your way home at the end of the day
Sing your way home cease the shadow away
Smile every mile for air you may roam
It would lighten your load
It would brighten your road if you sing your way home.

See, it’s so simple that perhaps you can just remember it for a second. When you read the line-by-line words in the song lyric and try to go inside them deeply, you’ll find it as a philosophical song. It’s like powerful words which say that there is no need to worry something since there are many things which are left to thanks for.

MS. RISK

Dreams are ….illustration from the book your soul is writing about you.
(Marsha Norman)

Will you take the risk for them?
Sure. Why not?

A VALEDICTION: FORBIDDING MOURNING

As virtuous men pass mildly away,
and whisper to their souls to go,
while some of their sad friends do say,
the breath goes now, and some say, no:

So let us melt, and make no noise,
No tear-floods, nor sigh-tempests move,
'Twere profanation of our joys
To tell the laity our love.

Moving of th' earth brings harms and fears,
Men reckon what it did and meant,
But trepidation of the spheres,
Though greater far, is innocent.

Dull sublunary lovers' love
(Whose soul is sense) cannot admit
Absence, because it doth remove
Those things which elemented it.

But we by a love so much refined,
That ourselves know not what it is,
Inter-assured of the mind,
Care less, eyes, lips, and hands to miss.

Our two souls therefore, which are one,
Though I must go, endure not yet
A breach, but an expansion,
Like gold to airy thinness beat.

If they be two, they are two so
As stiff twin compasses are two,
Thy soul the fixed foot, makes no show
to move, but doth, if th' other do.

And though it in the center sit,
Yet when the other far doth roam,
It leans and hearkens afetr it,
And grows erect, as that comes home.

Such wilt thou be to me, who must
Like th' other foot, obliquely run;
Thy firmness makes my circle just,
And makes me end, where I begun.

-John Donne (1572-1631)-

SOMEONE YOU DREAM OF VS SOMEONE YOU CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT

Which one will you choose to be your spouse?
Why?

Gimme a Break

Wow..wow...it's like a hell day in the serial of blala..blaa..(I didn't remember what was it.)
it's like a satire joke for my life...
I just remembered these days I felt too scattered to do something. No garden. No cooking. No singing. No mailing. No chatting. No writing. Just the mundane of life happening over and over. I felt crippled. There must be something wrong with my life these day. I couldn’t help it. Then I decided to go somewhere, a place where I could find the joy of my life.

EPHEMERA

By letto

I do remember hate that came after .. a broken heart ..
Sadness that make me so helpless .. I cant fight ..
I can remember how long it last ..
I'm sure it went away so freakin’ fast ..

Far too many emotions
that taint my soul
before my faith
and often I drown in the moment
when in the end they all ..
ephemera

I do remember laughter that can make .. my stomach hard
With happiness that make it all pretty .. even a dirt ..
I can remember how long it last ..
I'm pretty sure it went away so fast ..

# far too many emotions
that taint my soul
before my faith
and often I drown in the moment
when in the end they are
ephemera

a perfect dream of a vivid fantasy
imagination that could comeback to me
#

where every path I take feels seem the only on the right direction ..

so I’m growing old but life doesn't seem as pretty ..
with sometimes life as not blue as an endless sea ..

(blue as the sea.. blue as the sky )
everywhere I look everywhere I turn ..
every time I grow and every time I burn
I should not mind to morn ..
sometimes it just ..
ephemera ..

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April 1st 2008

I wrote this on the 1st April '08:

"The day's changing.
The time's running.
Then I'm flying.
Trying to pursue
My dreams...my happiness...
They run fast...
But I run faster
Then we'll meet
through the momentum of love."

A WHITE ROSE

The red rose whispers of passion,
And the white rose breathes of love;
Oh, the red rose is a falcon,
And the white rose is a dove.

But I send you a cream-white rosebud,
With a flush on its petal tips;
For the love that is purest and sweetest
Has a kiss of desire on the lips.

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